Soliloquies of a sanguine soul

Thoughts/ Quotes/ Poetry



We all know the answer.

I Miss You!

Don’t wait, take a leap of faith!

2016: A year to remember.

2016 a year that I’ll never forget. A year that turned my life upside-down and pushed me to my limits. Many unfortunate events happened. I lost my parents and other family members as well. My Ma & Pa, the ones who brought me into this world, suddenly left me all alone. In a span of 8 months I witnessed the worst, I saw my parents struggling for their life, I felt the helplessness and I experienced the unimaginable pain. I have never in my life been so scared and so shocked. At first, I couldn’t accept the fact that I lost my father. I cried but more than that I controlled myself for my mother’s sake. But then I cried like a little kid when just after 2 months of my father’s passing away my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I cried my eyes out and I kept on complaining. I pleaded to God and to my father to help us from the beyond. With unanswered request I again gathered all my strength for my mother’s sake. But she left me too after 4 months of excruciating suffering. Somewhere deep down I feel relief for her. She wanted to live and she was a fighter but the cancer left her with no choice. Her body eventually gave up and she freed herself from all the worldly pains. Nobody can take their place and nothing can fill this void inside me. Fortunately, I have a loving & caring family. Husband, sisters, nieces, nephews, in-laws and my precious friends (more like soul sisters).Β  They all helped me in every which way possible. And I can’t ask enough from them. I love them with all my heart.

All in all 2016 taught me a lot. I learned many important lessons.Β  Firstly, the most important one is that life is unpredictable so don’t waste it after unnecessary meaningless petty issues. Value your relationships, sort out your problems, forgive & forget, fulfill your dreams, travel, explore, discover. Just don’t waste the precious time you are blessed with.

Secondly, live your life the way you want to live it. Never let anything stop you, bad health, work stress, sacrifices, failures or personal issues. These all are part of one’s life, learn to live happily with it. Also never undermine yourself. You have every right to be the person you are. Believe in yourself and live guilt-free. Focus on yourself and find out if some treasure is still hidden inside you. By the end of this year I found out that I not only write a to-do-list but I can actually write some meaningful articles.

And lastly, never hide your feelings. Vent them out. Choose a medium and vent them out in the most positive way possible. Talk, discuss, write, whatever suits you. I chose writing. It’s your turn now.

2017 is finally here so I wish you all a stress-free, pain-free, peaceful, healthy, wealthy, happy new year! I hope, you all find real happiness…Most importantly you find yourself! πŸ’‹πŸ’–


An enigmatic soul!

I saw a dream…

Does it ever happen to you that you wake up in the morning completely engrossed in the mix of emotions? Does it make you feel restless when you take a few seconds to adjust yourself to the surroundings and finally realize that it was all a dream? Yes, a dream for which your heart has been yearning for so long. And when you are finally in it you will do anything to never let it end. A fear starts to engulf you that it might not last forever and then you will wake up with so many things unsaid and so many things undone. Do you know that feeling?

I saw such a dream. A dream so real that I forgot all my worldly pain. I saw her in there with a radiant smile and sparkling eyes just like I remembered. A calm on her face telling me that everything will be alright my love. Those few minutes in my dream world were like an emotional roller coaster ride with happy faces, pounding hearts, teary eyes and trembling voices. I was going crazy. Running towards everyone shouting, β€œShe is back, My Mum is back”. I wanted to hold her tight and never let her go. But, little did I know that it was just a dream.

For once…πŸ’–

The unbearable pain πŸ’”

The spark within you πŸ”₯

Up ↑